I don't really know what to write. I never do. In class when I'm supposed to be ya know paying attention I think of lots of things that I should write about it. Case in point: I really have to get back on ritalin. But then I get to my laptop or notebook and nothing. I think nothing and write nothing. Ballad Of Big Nothing (Hey Elliot). It's like everything I thought is erased from my mind. Maybe I should carry around a tiny notebook just to write down little reminders. "Crane walked in front of you at Campus and your screamed running across the field. Embarrassed yourself to all passerby" type of thing.
Like how people wake up from dreams and your supposed to write down some of the key things to remember it in the morning. Because your mind will forget a lot of the details. It's pretty fucked I'd have to do that just to remember what I though an hour ago. But mostly I now have this thought of how people are talking to themselves all day basically.
I have to try and watch Suht Jhally lectures now till he's a little voice in my head. A little skullet hair having South African or British voice. Shit, obnoxious laugher. It's like a duck sucked in some helium and it is now being strangled.
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