"Shauna, you can be Alicia. I'll be Jay Z obviously."

So, me and Shauna are going to NYC this weekend. I can hardly even register that we're really going. I've never been there before so I'm all excited and nervous at the same time. I really hate looking like a tourist or someone from out of town, but there's no chance I won't. I'm actually scared about getting lost somehow, since by 11:00 PM on Saturday I will be probably be wicka-pissa-hamma-faced working my way to supa-wicka-pissa-hamma-faced. In all that hamma-facedness I might be separated from my friends. I can't really imagine a scenario where I would leave a bar or someone's apartment to just wander the streets, but anything can happen. So I'm just gonna hold Chris's and Shauna's hands most of the night.

Shauna and Chris: "VQ! STOP HOLDING MY HAND!" (Drunk irritated)

Me: "If you let go of my hand then you let go of our love." (Drunk sad)

Anyways, NYC. I'm freaking euphoric feeling to know I'm going to see Chris. It's been about three months. It makes me sad to not have him in life as much anymore. I miss my other friends to, but most of them are closer to home. That's not totally true. Christine is in Philly. But I guess with Chris it's different because he's out living his "real life" now. By "real life" I mean he's where he wants to be forever. I have no idea where I'm going to end up or what I'm going to do with my life. Chris is already on his way. It's just scary to know he's starting the life he wants. He's probably not going to come home summers. I try not to think about it too much. It's depressing.

I'm just going to enjoy this weekend with him and Shauna. And how fucking awesome is it that I'm going with Shauna? She's never been either. Me and Shauna used to go on vacations all the time when we were little. I always brought her along with me on my family ones. She could never bring anyone cause she's a twin and her parents thought that would suffice for same age companionship. So I never got to go to Mexico or Arizona or Florida or other cool places they went.

The bolt bus should be a great experience, and by great I mean holy shit I hope no weird people interact with us or the bus flips over. Irrational anxiety be thy name.

I used to not like NYC at all. I thought it was way overhyped. But I'd never been there so I was kind of being an asshole. It just seems dumb to put all this glory on one city. I guess I'll see how amazing it is. Chris loves it. We're not really going to do any sightseeing, like Ellis Island, Statue of Liberty, or my ultimate wet dream The National Museum of History. I'll just save that shit for another time I visit him.

Today is going to suck. My Tuesdays are HELL. I'm in class from 2:30 to 3:40 then work 4:00 to 6:00 then I have my organic farming lab 6:30 to 9:30. I just need to survive this week to make it to the city of dreams. Is NYC called the city of dreams? Or is that Disneyworld?